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For now I guess, life/reality finally caught up to me and slapped me in the face, and it hurts. My girlfriend recently left me for some other guy - I have no idea what to do, I've also been medicated on lithium ever since I can remember, and I don't know if I'm being a cunt, or I'm so numb I can't even feel what's going on around me.

My life has just kind of spiralled down since a few weeks ago, I think I've finally.. I dunno- I think my mind has just gone, I'm not too sure if I need some help to get me through this depression I'm having, but since the last few weeks, I've been scared of myself, am I going to kill myself? or am I just having a stage through life where it shows me what life is like.

Sometimes, I'll be happy and cheerful, however, sometimes I'll snap and my mind will wonder of into some strange state, some type of depressed state. Or I'll loose the plot and take my anger out on someone.

This is the first time in my life where my heart, has broken into two pieces, and it's killing me, every time I think of this or my girlfriend I big lump in my throat makes me feel sick.

I don't know if I'll commit suicide, or go insane and harm someone, but whatever I do - remember that people on Newgrounds, like Doberman7, Jake, Tramps, Gagsy, Mechabloby, TwillightFox, eyeothestorm, IrishGun, alicetheDroog and alot of other friends I've made have made me feel good about myself or have made me laugh in numerous ways.

Basically, call me "emo fagit" if you will, do whatever. I just wanted to get this of my chest. Thanks for reading. Maybe one day, I'll come back, when I can sort everything out. Until then, farewell.

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I'll get a friend of mine to look after my account while I'm gone. - Bye guys, you've been great. <3

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Also, I know that some of the stuff I typed isn't in order of events or whatever. I was rushing I guess.

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I'll be back one day guys, thanks everyone. Since I last talked with everyone, I've been feeling a little better, but I do need a few months away from the Internet, as friends have said, it will help in the long run. I feel that the Internet and other distractions, mainly Newgrounds and a few other things will stop me achieving what I need, until I return my account will be taken care of by a friend of mine IRL, thanks for being so understanding guys, I really appreciate it.

If I do return sometime this year, it'll be possibly late November or December, but don't expect I'll be back till next year. Until then, bye guys - it's been a blast.
~Mason (MrLuckDuck)

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ok, I'm back now - I'll probably write the story later on.

I guess it's time for another blogpost, since my recent one - not much has happened to me, or anything interesting... yet. ;)

So, basically - until something awesome happens for me to blog about, feel free to ask me anything, it could be about sex, religion, or you could just post "how are ya?" n_n

Anyway, go.

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Also, pay-day in a few days - feel free to recommend me something to buy.

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EDIT2- Going to London for a few days with some friends on Saturday, yay! obviously drink, sexual innuendos and the like will happen. If I'm lucky I'll bring back some pictures (including me, london, friends, random shit) woo!

Hi guys, I guess I can call this my official blog - I've found it hard to make a good blog, due to the fact I've not had much to blog about, or anything interesting to blog about, this will be a rant related blog - I'd appreciate if you'd keep reading anyway.

You might believe it, but I was once an 06 user, I joined with a different account - I will not say the username for a few discrimination reasons, and I do not use the account anymore. I first joined Newgrounds around July 06, the General BBS was filled with good (lulzy) topics, good users and the atmosphere felt more welcoming.

I created this account in Jan or Feb 07, I wanted a fresh start, something new - on top of that, I had a good understanding how the BBS works, how it accepts users and how it disapproves them.

As the year progressed on, I made friends - people who I could talk to, people like Tramps, Jake, Gagsy, Mechabloby, TwillightFox and many more. However, as the year progressed the topics turned into crap, and then shit users started to ruin things.

Now it's 08 - and I'll be honest, I've basically stopped posting as much as I did in 07 because there are no topics that allow a good discussion. Half of them are "hay guise wut u eat 4 brekfest?" or "anime rules lolol"

It's sad, the General BBS has died - it's lost everything that I loved back in 06 and 07. I don't know about you older users who joined in 04 -05, but I'm guessing you've probably seen this difference to.

I guess that's it for now, I'll possibly update this blog slightly and add anything else I feel needs to be added.

-On a side note, I've ordered Garden State and it should be arriving today. Yay! :)

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If I kept making blog posts like this, would you keep reading them? - what makes you want to read a blog? please tell me, It'll help me improve my future blogs and then I'll know what you guys like to read. What do you personally prefer to read in a blog?
Thanks.

EDIT-2
Garden State arrived yesterday, was an awesome film. Natalie Portman, ftw <333!